it’s not that i’m feeling “grinchy”…

it’s just that i’m feeling un-christmas-y. i felt christmas-y at disneyworld, sorta, i mean surrounded by some of the ornaments and all, it’s just that, like most years, i am not really with family on christmas or whatnot. and though last year i had a sort of burst of energy to drag out my very fabulous white christmas tree with ever changing light display, this year i look about my piles of crap amassed everywhere… meh! what a mess!

it’s been a great year, or rather, it’s ending up to be a great year, and i must say that i am somewhat embarrassed to be receiving xmas cards and gifts almost everyday from family and friends. i say embarrassed becasue i am so damn bad about getting organized and planning for christmas that i have all but given up on doing xmas cards and can barely get things out when ordered online to the few folks i exchange gifts with regularly. it just seems to sneak up on you, christmas does. it’s like since all the crap goes up in the stores bfore thanksgiving and all, i kind of tune it out because i think “oh, it’s months till christmas!” when i got home from my vacation, i remarked to my pal donna that it was like 3 weeks till christmas and she said, um, its next thursday. fuck.

so, on the eve of the eve, i’m kind of having a little pity party melt down. i was SUPPOSED to be doing better at being in contact with my family and friends – whom i love! i was SUPPOSED to be not flailing about last minute for remembrances for those people who mean a lot to me. i was SUPPOSED to have lost that effing 10 pounds by now – wait..that’s for another list…

so i am sitting here staring at my computer, ready to throw it against a wall – it’s running so damn slow and annoys the hell out of me and i am sure it’s the result of  random internet crap on my computer that i could somehow remove, but defragging and emptying files don’t seem to help. i have a few days off about this holiday and a laundry list of honey-dos (yes, i am the honey) and i am doing none of it.

i should be running 82 miles right now! arg!

oh, final random thought – doesn’t every random VW bug you have ever sat in – regardless of it’s age and it’s owner – smell exactly the same? kind of plastic-y and diesel-y and VW-y?

i tried out some punctuation for you today. you’re welcome.

sleeps with dogs

 yes, i KNOW somewhere on the hat is should add : “…even though they try to eat my face off”, but what can i say, the full immersion in co-dependency with my demon dog continues…

call ended up being fine, though i didn’t get much sleep. not (fortunately) because i was at work all night, but because i was on call and i can never really relax. also, there were those fireworks. i must blank out every year on how dogs feel about fireworks, cause pretty much miss maggie barked her head off for about 3 hours straight. and the party outside my patio door really wasn’t TOO noisy in the scheme of life, but just enough activity to send maggie into a her usual frenzy. i worked about 5 hours during the day, then didn’t have to go back in. i will be curious to see how the weekend crew gets hit, because it was cookin’ yesterday at the little house and i can’t imagine people didn’t blow off their fingers or try to race the police last night too…

so i have planned to do some errands today (being post call, you never know if you are going to have slept or been up for 24 straight), maybe get a pedicure. would love to get in some pool time, but the forecast is rain and it is very overcast outside (though it is 8 gajillion degrees with equal humidity) and it smells like smoke. still.

i have some podcasting work to do this weekend, and i am enjoying it, although it is time consuming. i am liking even what little bit i have learned and am hoping that my audio output quality will continue (or begin?) to improve as i go along. i think it is great that me and my bff are sharing the post-production responsibilities anyway – AND that she can tolerate my computer unsavviness as i still don’t really understand the difference between a host and a server and i never did get those damn MX records changed anyway.

mild or minor annoyance? i was checking email this morning and my vaio slipped and went bonk – no more than 10 inches from the floor, not bashed, onto carpet. but it appears to have landed squarely on the power outlet cord, denting the plastic casing around the ac plug dealie. it is working fine. there is a crack and the angle of the power cord isn’t straight, but the battery IS charging and the connection seems to feel tight. i find it 100 percent annoying that a bare little slip can make that crack. i don’t know if that little piece is a little widget that could be fixed or a fatal flaw that, once it wiggles loose, my whole computer will be lost. hmmmmm….. this vaio is about 3 or 4 years old. i like it. i had been thinking that i might need to begin to emotionally prepare for a new computer in the next year just due to size and technology and all the podcasting stuff, maybe i would need something faster. i have never been one to add or have someone add new drives or what ever. i’ve had each of my 3 computers for about 5-6 years each, at which point windows had changed so much and the speeds increased, i just donated the old one (my old church, my poppa) and got a new one.  also the right mouse click button thing is getting loose. but i am sure buttons do not a whole new computer require….

 

anywho, better hop in the shower and get my errands done. feels like it is early, but its already after 10am!!!!

trouble ahead

 thought i double-oh-seven-ed the ability to pre-set up posts on this blog site. however, my post for today didn’t move itself on over @ 0534 as i thought i set up…. hmmmmmm…..

i’m going to indiana for a long weekend and won’t have access on my laptop unless i’m in the airport (or else i could put my poppa on the barn with a colander on his head and a wire hanger, but it is getting chilly these evenings..).

must..keep….trying…